motherhood

Yes, I understand it has been quite a while since you heard from me. I am updating this in the rare moment of free-time I can manage. I am alive, don’t worry. Man, this motherhood thing is really hard. Pray for me.

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baby shower fun!

I am obviously waiting for the due date of my baby boy to come, and due to some prior complications, I am still not sure if I will be undergoing a cesarian section procedure or a natural birth. Tomorrow I will go in for what I believe is my last ultrasound imaging to determine the type of birth and when we should be expecting the baby.

I am nervous but also extremely elated and excited to meet him. Today, his aunt bought him cute booties to wear and they are just the cutest!

Here they are!Adorable, right? The picture features the cute baby to be.

UPDATE: I went to my appointment and I am officially waiting for the baby to come, sans C-Section. So exciting because I am daunted by the birthing process and C-Section equates to more pain.

Regardless, I am now annoyed at wordpress.com because they decided to over-save my blog post with an old draft of the post. ARGH.

Ok, here we go again!

And over the weekend, I had a baby shower for my upcoming boy coming soon!

We had it at the beautiful Saraya Restaurant with over 70 people in attendance.

My friend and Basil’s (that’s the boy’s name!) honorary auntie Hadeel designed and basically planned the entire party’s theme and the included games, and it was a success! Look at this beautiful party spread, all thanks to her awesome, talented self.

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Look at all these treats! The jello-filled martini glasses (non-alcoholic of course!) were my favorite. It was berry flavored jello with blueberries inside each glass.

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Everything, especially the dessert, was delicious! There were also games during the party, like onesie decorating, belly measuring and baby food tasting (I am most definitely not feeding my son anything that lives in a jar on a Walmart shelf.)

Here is a cropped picture of me cutting the cake. I cropped my face because I wear a headscarf usually, but I was not wearing one in this picture.

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I had a wonderful time, and I was excited so many people came to celebrate such a monumental milestone in my life, even if there was an issue with the music playlist and therefore, the music being played. My mother really worked hard to make the party a success, and it was!

My mom is a huge influence in my life, and especially with the pregnancy. She does so much for me daily, as do the rest of my family. I cannot thank them enough for everything.

The pregnancy is tiring me (I’m 36 weeks and three days pregnant) so that’s all for now! I will see you guys later with a shopping haul post once all my goodies come in (aka clothes! Not maternity wear!!!!)

See you guys later!

a letter to my future son

I wanted to write this letter to my son, and also as a think piece.  Because obviously a fetus cannot read until age three and it might be better to write this now than to wait a year until he can make out letters.

Quick background though, I am 8 months pregnant. Bet that was a shock because I never mentioned it in the pathetic postings within 8 months I have managed to put up. Also, for personal reasons, I wasn’t too keen to celebrate the pregnancy as it was something I could not come to terms with. However, here is a picture of me at, I believe, 33 weeks.

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That’s me! And that is also my baby in there (I gained quite a bit of weight but the doctor told me to worry about that post-partum) and he should be here the end of August if he’s patient, doesn’t look like it though. We will stay tuned for his arrival!

I want to say a lot to my son, and I don’t want to get too caught up in life and forget what’s on my mind, I have so much I want to say. Well, here it goes.

Dear Baby Basil, 

I love you already and I haven’t seen your face yet, apart from the distorted ultrasound pictures that I’ve had done watching you move back and forth in my womb. There is so much in this life that you’re going to love, especially having more space to stretch and play, which is probably more fun than sticking inside a small womb and stretching me out to my limit. You have so many people who are ready to play with you

You have so many people who are ready to play with you and be your friend, it’s not funny. You are going to have a huge family when you get here, including Teta, who is going crazy buying your cute outfits, and Seedo, who is planning outings with you. Your Khaltos (aunties) are obsessed with you, and you always hear Khalto Nadeen talk to you daily and give you rubs. Your uncle is so excited to have another boy in the family to hang out with him. You also have a lot of family that you’ll meet later, like another Teta and Seedo and more fun uncles! Trust me, we can’t wait to see you. 

Daddy is so excited to see you too. I believe he hides it sometimes, but he is so excited to be your Baba. He is working really hard to give you the best chance at life, he wants to be the best for you.

I wanted to tell you life is not that hard. Yeah, I’m sure you’ve heard cries and screams from inside your cocoon, and promises to make this better for you, but mashallah life is a beautiful thing. I am going to show you how to be healthy and happy. I am going to show you the true meaning of being kind to all Around you. 

Most of all I’m going to show you how being a Muslim has its hardships but its bountiful rewards in this donya. 

But hey, we got a lifetime together to live through those experiences so no rush. 

Promise me you’ll arrive healthy and safely in my arms, that’s a lot but it is all I ask from you. 

Love you and can’t wait to see you,

Your mommy, Mama, Hadeel

❤️